Days Bygone

Tomorrow might never come
today might be as long as it goes

thinking hard about the days gone by
making it sound like a turmoil bygone

i wished for the small little things
that which i have forgotten to enjoy

i wish for the small hugs..
that i need badly at this time

the world has stood against me
so deeply had thrust its ideas upon me

god only knows where i will be tomorrow ..
for today i m afraid to think abt morrow ..

things are wrong somewhere ...
and i aint going anywhere...

i am stuck in the rot
no idea where to go ..

please change it for me o lord ...

or i have no other option ...

but to come close to you ...

to ask you about the twists that you gave me ...
to ask why me ...

what exactly changed it all ..
was it me ..
or was it you ...


i have lost ...
i have lost ...
the battle against you...


its time now to make a move ..
to end this lost battle as fast as you can ...

i have bowed before you ...
like a lost warrior with his head bowed down ...
still counting the moments that are left ..

feeling the last few breaths ...
the sword of yours have come close to my neck ..

any moment it will be done...
one more life perishing to the moment ...
that which he had never imagined so...

its true and everyone will say ...
you are the only one who will stay ...

So hop on your chariot and enjoy your victory..
under the disguise of good vs evil ....

just because i have left you ..
you decided its enough ...

you no longer need me...
so kill him you said

and there you went with those twists and turns ...
to make it all topsy turvy...

but thanks for all that you have done for me ...
thanks for all this years which i quite never lived ...

and thanks ....thanks for the last few moments when peace returned to me.

Romeo and juliet

It wasnt so unusual to knw the reaction on her sweet little face ..

i had always wondered where tht came from ...

i smiled a little ...she replied to my smile with a smile...

i waved my hand a little towards her ..

she replied me back with a wave of her beautiful hands ..

hiii..i said ...

hii ...she replied back ...

i am romeo ..i said ..

i am juliet ..she said ..

How wonderful ..i said ..

yeah ..she replied back ...

isnt it quite unsual ..she asked me ..

wat?? i asked her

to be rocking and kicking in this era ...she said

yeah ..its quite unsual ..i replied back ...

but isnt is more unsual that ...i said

wat ..she asked me in a jiffy..

we have the same name ...i said

yeah ..she replied ...

i am still juliet ...and you are still romeo...she continued ...

ohh romeo ...where art thou romeo ....for so long years , for so many decades , for so many centuries

i was here my lady love .. ..thinking abt you ...thinking where have you gone ...thinking about all those beautiful moments we spent together , the serenity of our love , the crazy things we did ..everything about u & only u did i thought ....

but how was it possible ...juliet asked ..i was doing the same thing and at this same place ....

well.. i think it was a wait worth it ..isnt it ...i asked ...

what would have happened if we had met then and there only ..would you have loved me as much as you still love me now ...i questioned

hmm ..probably ...i wouldnt have ...juliet said or probably i would have ..


But then this are all probabilities ..she said ..

yeah ..i replied back ..looking deep into her eyes ..

can i ask you one thing ..i asked her ..

yes..always , anytime ...she replied back

havent you had any affair in this long days bygone...????

she said ...well , to be true ...i did had one or two ..but the time i did saw you; i was in love with you again

wat..i asked her with a big question mark that followed it

How could you do this to me ..i asked her ...wat will the world think about us now...

you know there have been so many plays written on us ., there have been so many love stories woven around us , there have been so many people who are a big fan of us ...and there is so many much more ...& wat about our brand ...you have destroyed it all ..

ohh i am sorry sweetheart ..she replied back ....but it was you who destroyed it all ..it was you who two timed me..it was you who fallen in love with that meneka from the holy land of india ...
how can thee do this to me ...

I think we should part ways ..i said ..

I fear, too early: for my mind misgives
Some consequence yet hanging in the stars

its best that people know us the same way we were for them ..let them stuck to those folklores, & give them the hope ...let them live their life for the true love & not sulken further..


i agree unto thee ..said juliet ..let the sail direct itself to the shore and let us live the life like any lusty gentlemen and a little less gentlewomen ...

Thanks to thee both romeo and juliet who sacrificed their lives once again to carry unto the things that stirs up feelings like no other love story ;showing the nobility and strength of true love...

I dont believe you

I dont believe you ...she said ...

and i had no words for it ...

i was waiting for that second chance...

it was hard and truely it wasnt me ...

but the angel that she was ....

i knew she wont do that to me...

are you there ..she cried at the top of her voice ...

I didnt replied ...

let me see you ..she said again...

I am there... always ...i said ..coming in front of her

she grabbed me by my shirt ....

plz stay here ..till i go to sleep...i am afraid ...she said..

i waited by her side , the whole night ...

and then came the dawn ...

to leave her ...

to leave her in a lurch...

to move in my own direction ...

bye...i said ..

she was still sleeping..

...she was still feeling

...feeling the warmth of having me by her side...

I touched my feet down on the floor ...

moved myself up from the sweet tender love to the hard and real world ...

i wasnt sure how she could handle it ...

but there was no other option ...

...no other option but to end it ...

Dawn

i could feel the mist in the air ...

moving around ,with my small steps..

..not knowing where i am going ...

i knew its the end...

i knew that the time has come....

time for change ....

To look at the sun rising ...

to swim in the sea...

to remove one mask and to put on another ...

to show the world one more face of mine...

i dnt knw whether this would be evil or good....

bt surely the time has come ....

to decide between heaven and hell...

to decide between love and hatred ...

to decide the path to the destiny you never picked ....

running towards the sea ..with all the clothes removed ....

running for the sake of running...without thinking ...


the time has come ..my dear ...

to think our lives on different terms ...

to change the way we have been thinking ....


Th time has come certainly

......the time for "dawn".

Last moments

There was a glow on her face even when she was dying ...

There was no remorse ...

but the candles blew off ...

and the flowers stopped blooming...

and the wind stopped flowing...

I screwd up ..she said...still at the deathbed ...

i am sorry she said ..with a drop of tear in her eyes..

and then she said with a smile on her lips ....i am not afraid ....

to go ..to go beyond ...

i was there ..looking at her ..looking at her face ...

stunned ...thinking how can she smile ...

at the face of death...

she gave me a piece of paper...

you wont understand ..she said..probably knowing what i was thinking...

i was holding her in my arms ...

but not a drop of tear came from my eyes ...

i dont know why ..

why her death was making me tougher...

and then i saw her close her eyes ...

bidding a last goodbye....

to me and to the rest of the world...

and there came the tears that i was trying to hold ...

falling on her beautiful face ...

hoping she would open her eyes and smile through those lovely lips...

but she never did ...

still holding her ...i felt her for the last time..

and then i moved away from her ...

still looking at her ...

i felt like throwing up...

why her..i asked ...

there was no reply...

and then i saw her crumbled piece of paper still in my hands...

i opened it slowly not knowing what it was ...

Smile Please ...it said

And i did just that...

I am Free

I looked up to the sky hoping something will happen...

It wanted it badly...

the grace of you ,

the grace of you....

to make me feel like a home...

to feel ur hug ....

to cry on your shoulder ...

not caring whether someone is seeing me or not ...

removing all the attitude i possess...

forgetting all the worries that i have got ...

making me feel like a child again ..

nothing is important any more ...

make me free ...

free from all that you have given me ...

and then i asked am i ??...

and the answer was prompt with the grace....the love ...
...

"Yes You Are"

Eternity

I was searching for eternity ...

i was searching for god..

and then she came, like a messenger of god ...

to revive me ...

of my existence...

she made me close my eyes ...

and with those beautiful lips ..she touched my eyes ...

the way only she could...

she came close to me ...

and then she whispered ...

come back to life ..

for now i am here ...

to get you close to god ....

come now ...or there wont be anything...

its just the way it should be ...

u dont need to search for eternity ..

for eternity is here ...with me